Hey guys! Sorry that I haven’t posted in a little while, but there hasn’t been a whole lot to post about, really. This will just be a little update about what’s going on in my life right now.
First of all, I am on winter break, which I am loving! I get almost a full month of winter break since I am in college now, and that’s about the longest winter break I’ve ever had. So far, I’ve been on winter break for a week. I’ve been sleeping a lot better because I have less anxiety and less tics when I am at home, but I’ve still been having a fair amount of stomach issues because of anxiety even though I’m at home.
I do have a party on Friday at one of my best friend from high school’s house. Even though she is my best friend, I haven’t been to her house since sophomore year because she lives so far away, and driving out to her house takes so long, so it’s very exciting for me to be going over to her house again.
I’m excited to see my other high school friends and to be at her house because it’ll be just like old times, and it will probably bring back a lot of old feelings and memories. Some of the memories it brings up will be of wonderful times, but of course some will be more unpleasant memories of my high school days. I’m not really going to get into that, though.
I have to get my wisdom teeth out on the 10th of January, which I am really nervous about. I will only have 4 days to recover before I have to go back to school, and I’m really hoping I won’t still look like a chipmunk when I go back to see my college friends.
It makes me feel better that I’m seeing such a great oral surgeon, though. My mom said today that she trusts him with her life, and he did my mom’s dental implant. She had to go under general anesthetic, and she came out just fine.
I’ve also had 12 teeth removed previously surgically, so I know I’m find under general anesthetic, so I really shouldn’t be all that nervous. I think writing about this is helping me calm down. I’m sure I will be fine even if I am a little nervous.
I also see my OCD therapist this morning. My OCD is probably the best it’s been in 3 or 4 years, but I’m still on a maintenance program with my therapist to make sure it stays that way. I’m actually glad I will be talking with her, though, because it’s really the first time I will be able to say that my OCD isn’t really interfering with my life that much right now.
Sure, I still have a whole list of things I can’t do because of my OCD, things I have to avoid because of my OCD and things I have to do because of my OCD, but I really still feel as if it’s not a huge problem for me right now because of all the rituals and compulsions I knocked out over the summer in the summer intensive program, and it’s just been getting better as the year has been going on.
I only wash my hands after going to the bathroom, really, even though I still wash in a very ritualized way and for more time than most people do. I can do my laundry and touch dirty clothes. I touch all door knobs besides bathroom door knobs (and even some of those I have been able to touch), and I could keep listing all the things I can do now and all the things that are better because my treatment for my OCD has been successful to a large extent, but I won’t keep listing because that would take way too long.
Thanks for reading! I know it wasn’t the most exciting post, but I will post more exciting posts later I keep going forward. Also, if you follow me here on the blog and enjoy reading my blog posts, be sure to follow and “like” my Facebook page about TS and OCD!