52 Weeks of TS: Week 49

EDITOR’S NOTE: Every Tuesday, noted Tourette Syndrome advocate Troye Evers shares his “52 Weeks of TS” blog journal with the TSParentsOnline community. With just THREE weeks remaining in this series, there’s a chance you missed one more entries from his exciting, revealing journey. You can read all of them here. For more information about Troye, please click on his name or visit his website.

OK, this is really it. We are coming so close to the end of this series. I really can’t believe how fast this year has flown by. Is it really already the end? I spent the evening in a minor anxiety attack. I guess the fish oil does not help with all anxiety. I tried to keep distracted with TV, but it was not helping that much. I did end up having to take a Klonopin just to relax myself so I was able to go to sleep. By the time I woke up the next morning, I pretty much forgot about the events of the night before, but I was quickly reminded.

I was walking along the area rug in my bedroom when I heard and felt a crunch under the rug. This is usually no big deal. I am always finding something that the cats got a hold of and have hidden under the rug. I have found pencils, matches, pen caps and whatever they get a hold of, but I never expected to find a mouse. Yep, a mouse. I felt and heard the crunch, and without thinking, I just lifted the corner of the rug to find out what they put under there this time. There it was, lying lifeless but its germ and disease slowly spreading through my home.

After a minor freak out, I knew I had to remove the deceased body myself. I went into the kitchen, and retrieved a pair of tongs and a garbage bag. After picking up the mouse with the kitchen tongs and putting the mouse and the tongs in a large kitchen garbage bag, I threw everything down the garbage shoot and went on to Lysol almost every square inch of my apartment.

I have spent most of the past 48 discussing different ways and options that I was attempting to help with any of my symptoms of TS. One of the most effective things is fish oil for my anxiety, but it is definitely not working on OCD and Germaphobia. I have tried many different paths, a lot of them with no outcome, but that’s just my case.

People with TS are all different, so something that doesn’t work for me, might actually work for someone else. I have been trying acupuncture and Chinese herbs and I am closely approaching the six-week period where I should be seeing some type of change, but I haven’t seen much of a change so far. I have tried to pay attention to any differences in my body, but all I can notice is maybe more tics, or just a harder time trying to suppress my tics. I don’t know if this is the Chinese herbs, or just the comfort and acceptance that has grown inside me.

I have grown a lot this year, and become very comfortable with myself and who I am. That’s what life is for, to grow. Even though the year is close to the end, I still plan to continue on my journey of growing and educating and I hope you do, too. Until next week, “I’ll tic to you later.”

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